Troy picked up some beautiful flowers from the farmers market last weekend, while I was helping my mom set up for a wedding lunch.
Wednesday was the kids first day back to school. Little bit on the stressful side as you can see.
Morgan went to another cooking class and made these yummy Australian version on rice crispy treats. Super yummy.
Then Friday the kids set up tents in the neighbors back yard. We have the best neighbors we have had anywhere we have lived, here on this street. The kids roasted marshmelows for smores and then camped out.
So, Troy has wanted to know why I mostly post pictures any more and don't write a lot. It's hard for me to write about our life any more. We try to keep this positive because it is our family blog and I like to print it out, sort of as a photo album/journal for us every year. Almost weekly we (Tanya and I) have some sort of issue. With her attachement disorder (she hasn't bonded with Troy or I and she doesn't have a bond even with her biological siblings) and she is still in a constant state of fear. It's a million times better than when she got here, but she still cannot relax or just be or really enjoy things. She is learning to breath and calm her self down when her anxiety and thoughts get away from her. But compaired to Ana and Victor she has a long ways to go with her English and school, mostly because she can't remember things when she is afraid. Which is difficult because she is afraid a lot and is still afraid of me, thanks to her biological mother abusing her. So if I am too nice or things have been good for a week or so she will sabatage it or try to get me in trouble with Troy (love manipulation). So this year is just going to be more of a photo journal than journaling. It's too much for me to type about our relationships and the relationships of the kids right now and it will just drag me down to share all of the crappy motherhood stuff. It's just been a fight to keep myself from becoming too depressed. There are positives too and while I was gung ho trying to solve everyones problems and taking lots of classes I learned tons of stuff. It was just too much all at once and I got burned up. So we are starting over with baby steps just working on relationships. So on the positive, Ana and Victor have done really well this year. Both of their English has impoved quite a bit this summer. A few friends have recently pointed out how easy it is to understand Victor, I think we are just used to him and hadn't noticed how much he has improved. Plus Tanya sucks the life out of everyone, it's easy to forget we have five other children. Victor is also doing well with math and his comprehension continues to increase every day. This school year will be big for Ana as we will see how we can help her with her speach and learning disorders. She is bright and clever, she just has to learn differently. But happy and helpful. So some things are good and getting better. Yeah.
