I'm not sure if I ever mentioned this before, but I would love to work at the MTC! I also learned recently they have a portion that is specifically for online teaching as well? Which is actually my dream job because so much of it correlates with communications! The senior sisters told me I have a shot at getting a job. That was before I got in trouble... I hope it is still an option.
I am taking your advice dad and am going to move forward and not dwell on the past anymore :) thank you!
I mentioned we had an online baptism this week which was way exciting! It's my first and I'm quite happy about it :) I havent heard from Emily in a few weeks :( I'm going to wait a month to reach out to her. But we have a lot of people progressing online which is great :) we might set someone in our area for baptism this week... I'm still getting along well with Sister Meto which is good! My jeans from before the mission still fit me which is a surprise...? My companion has been out for a year so we celebrated by burning one of her skirts! I've definitely had my ups and downs in this past week alone, but I'm going to be okay :) thanks again for all your support. I miss you!!
Love,
Sister Keller
Reply from Troy
Thanks for the note Morgan. So sorry you are going through this. I’m glad whatever it is that you are working through it. Please hang in there and we will wait patiently to see your awesome face again.
Things have been good over here. I was in Colorado most of last week for a work thing and enjoyed being back out there for a bit.
Kids seem to be good. Ethan took the ACT again yesterday and is hoping he improves on his scores. Ana is doing her tech school stuff and so summer has arrived. Next week we have youth conference which should be fun. A bit of camping with the youth!
Love you tons. Keep up the good work. Work and service cure a multitude of sins. Do good and put the past behind you.
Dearest mama and dad,
As you see I am emailing instead of using messenger! Havent seen this in a while... i think i may have told you a few weeks back, but i have not been the most obedient missionary. I related some of the things I've done to my mission President and he is not very happy with me. I am going through the repentance process with him, and part of it is not being able to use messenger or Facebook for the rest of this month, possibly part of next. So I will only be emailing these next few weeks.
I am so sorry. This was never part of my plan. I always just wanted to be obedient, and I have no idea how I got here. I know mom would always talk about the slippery slope of sin, and now i see how real it is. And the worst part is it's not a kiddy pool at the bottom, its a pit of sadness and regret. I know If I really wanted to, I could find a way around it and call with a computer or another missionaries phone. But that isnt what this is about. I want to prove to the lord that my desire is to be worthy again, and I will go through all steps necessary to get there. It makes me think of a video called "Painted into a corner". Its going to take time, but I'm grateful for the opportunity Heavenly Father has given me to learn how to be more like the Saviour.
I think the hardest part is that my mission president goes home in 3 weeks and this will be his last impression of me. Some lessons sting worse than others.
Thank you so much for your constant love and support. I would not still be a missionary if it wasn't for your encouragement. I'm so sorry to have let you down, I promise i will be better. For you, the Lord, and myself. I love you guys so much and just hope I can one day make it up to you. I cant wait to, in a few months (hopefully not more!) call once again and tell yous all about it :) I miss you more than words can describe! I didnt know it at the time, but this is definitely the hardest punishment i could receive. It will definitely make me a better missionary :)
I'll send another email in a bit about more what's been going on this week! We are going to the zoo since wister Meto has never been to one, and we want to go before it rains!
I love love you!
Sister Keller
Reply from Carlin:
Hey sweet heart
I'm sorry that you are going through this! Do you have time to tell us a little bit?
I'm sorry if I took it too lightly when you were saying you were disobedient. But I sometimes think you are a lot harder on yourself than you need to be. Are things ok with Meta? We love you tons and hope you are doing ok.
Mom
No mama you didnt take it lightly at all. I choose to continue to be disobedient, and the love you showed me helped me to stop hating myself for the previous disobedience. It was exactly what I needed please dont apologize for it.
Pretty much what I got in trouble for was messaging other missionaries in the mission. It doesnt seem like such a big deal, but since so many missionaries got sent home, it started with the small things so President is trying to help us before it gets ahead. Hes very tired and I feel bad I added onto his problems. I love him a lot.
Things are good I think with Meto? We have very different mindsets about the situation. I want to do everything I can to be better, she wants to do everything she can to get around the punishment. She kind of reminds me of Ana... we are still getting along but I will let you know next week after I've tried to make us more obedient...
I just feel very stupid right now. I promise I'm trying, I think I've taken the first few steps of the repentance process and am just living in the consequences of my actions. I'm sorry I have not been the best missionary. I promise I will make use of the time I have left.
I love you :)
I love you too! I didn't realize you weren't allowed to do that. Interesting. That does make sense as to the not using messenger for awhile. Reminds me of parent trap movie: let the punishment fit the crime. 😉
This is definitely something you can work through and move forward. You are strong and amazing. Love you beautiful girl 💗💗
mom
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